Every year on this day, the first Sunday of August, I wake to my alarm at 6am and ask myself, “Why am I doing this again?” I pull myself out of bed and put on my biking clothes, “I am never doing this again.” Halfway up the first big hill, in the drizzly fog, I glance down at my odometer and wonder, “How can it possibly be that we’ve only ridden 5.74 miles?”
But at mile 22 I feel terrific! It’s only nine more miles and they are all down hill. When it’s over, I’m so glad I did it again, the Tour de Peninsula, a fund-raising ride for the San Mateo County Parks Foundation. Doug and I, and whichever friends have decided to join us on the Slow Motion Riders team each year, head over to the local brew pub to enjoy our traditional celebratory lunch of whatever the heck we feel like eating and drinking, guilt free.
I love it.
Which brings me to the subject of other things I think I hate and will never do again, and then do again and actually enjoy.
When I retired on March 1st of 2008, I thought I’d never work, ever again. Never. And then in August of 2010, I signed up for a part-time consulting gig in my old field, and strangely enough, I really enjoyed it. As you know, I just retired from that one on Monday, not because I didn’t enjoy it but because, even though it was a part-time job, it grew to be a part-time job with full-time responsibility. Even when I wasn’t working, I was thinking about work, which as you might imagine, was really starting to cramp my retirement!
At this moment in time, it feels like I’ll never want to work again. I’ve felt so light and carefree this week. I love not thinking about work. Not working is one thing, but not thinking about work is the real reason to retire. So right now, it feels like I’ll never want to work again. But never is a long time.
While it may or may not be probable, it is possible that I will live to see 100. That’s over 50 years of retirement. Here I am in year five of retirement, and I realize that I have no idea what I’ll actually be doing over the next 50 years. I’ll tell you this though, I’m going to spend it doing whatever I feel like doing. Right now, I definitely don’t feel like working, even a little. So that’s what I’m going to do right now, not work, even a little. But maybe, just maybe, I’ll stop using the word never.
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